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Sharing My Real Self with Others

Be True to YourselfJesus says that “love is a gift” that cannot be expected, demanded or earned and whilst I thought this is a beautiful way to view love, I’m only just starting to become aware of what this really means. Although, I know that I must let go of my erroneous belief about love and feel God’s Truth, that love is a gift, before it will sink deep into my heart. I have realised that it is a gift of my love to share my real self with others who care for me and want to know me, which I have never thought of myself in this way before today, that who I am is a gift. How I came to this realisation was through my prayer to God yesterday morning, I asked God to show me what my biggest fear is and to help me become aware of what was stopping me from actioning my biggest passion. By late afternoon I started to become aware of my biggest fear, which hinders much of my progression.

My biggest fear is being my real self and sharing who I am with others. I can show parts of my real self with those that are closest to me and on my blog (although this is a small portion of the depths of my passions), but on a larger scale I am terrified of sharing who I am, what I love, and what my passions and desires are. A fear that I have also realised that the majority of people have; afraid to be our real self 100% of the time, afraid of being judged, rejected, abandoned or attacked for being who we were created to be. What I have come to learn on my journey is that, because human love is greatly flawed and is not God’s definition of Love, whether we are being our real self or our façade self, we are not going to be loved the way God Loves Her children. So I would rather be my real self and please God, to live in harmony with God’s Love, and to become happier, healthier, and more free, than to live in a façade degrading my soul in order to try and please people that don’t really love me anyway.

Being our real self, who God created us to be, is a gift of love to ourselves and to others

My biggest passion is to teach Divine Truth through my personal experiences, so that it may assist others that are interested in developing a relationship with God and growing their soul in Love. However, I have a fear of public speaking, which I have had as long as I can remember, so this limits me to sharing my passion to those that are close to me or via my blog. Thus, the reason for my prayer to God, to show me what is getting in the way of following my passions, and also to receiving more of God’s Love. I asked God why was I so scared to express myself to large groups of people, which is my fear of sharing my real self, due to not being able to be who I was created to be as a child and I continued this throughout my adult life. I was taught by my home environment and society that I can’t be myself and if I’m not who others want me to be, than I will be dis-approved of, rejected, judged and/or attacked. So I learnt to be my façade self in order to try and lessen, and protect myself from this unloving behaviour.

Growing up in a restrictive and unloving environment has had a major impact on my whole life, including being fearful of expressing, being, and sharing my real self to most people, and especially in front of large groups of people. As a result, I have not embraced my biggest passion, which is not loving to myself as I don’t get to know and discover more of who I am, as well as limiting my growth. Also, this is not loving to others, as I am making it about me and not about sharing how beautiful and extremely beneficial it is to have a relationship with God, and to receive God’s Love. So my intention now is to challenge my fears and feel through them, so that I can feel the underlying causal emotions, which will enable me to be and express my real self more.

When I sincerely put the principals of Divine Truth into practice, they do work and life becomes more joyful, there’s more freedom and a growing confidence to be who God created me to be. One of the many benefits of developing a relationship with God, is that it makes this process so much easier than working through emotional injuries on your own.

God Loves all Her children and She is with us, and helping us every step of the way, even when at times we may feel God is not.

Love
Jennene 💝

~ Padgett Messages – A message from Helen Padgett November 30, 1914.

Developing My Will to Love

Hi Everyone,

It’s been a long time since I last wrote and there has been many changes in that time, which I may talk about some of them in future posts or I have been feeling that I may start recording as it will be less time consuming and I will be able to discuss topics in more detail. I have decided to write again because I have had some people in my life opening up, desiring to know the truth and wanting to heal themselves and their life, which has led to lots of discussions about the very topic I am so passionate about. So I thought it would be loving to start sharing again so that it may benefit others as it has benefited me greatly. One of the changes in my life I will briefly share now, but it is personal and I am still emotionally working through many layers of injuries, fears and false beliefs in order to heal and grow in love.

My husband Jason and I separated a year ago, after being together for 26 years and married for 22 years. The first 10 months of being separated has been extremely sad and painful for me to work through, due to the amount of emotional injuries in my soul and what I believed a man that loved me would do for me, as well as not being with my husband and possibly my soulmate. Over the past year I have begun to learn more about myself, some of what my true passions and desires are, about how to have a loving relationship from God’s prospective, the importance of my will and using my will to love, and addressing issues in my life without delay. Honestly, I don’t know how I would have gotten through the past year without God’s Love and guidance,  Jesus and Mary’s teachings, along with the love from my family and friends, and using my will each day to keep moving in a positive direction. I love you all and I am forever grateful for your love.

“God’s Love never fails, never gives up”

The past year has also opened many new doors for me, which I am really excited about (joy is coming). I have started my first year at University, I never would have thought I would go to Uni, but I am enjoying what I’m learning, although I don’t really like doing essays, as it takes my time away from doing other things that I am more passionate about. I am doing English and Creative Writing, Australian History and Aboriginal Studies, with a desire to one day write children’s educational books about love and when I learn more about love myself. Which leads me to my favourite subject to talk about, it is what lights up my soul, when I’m not letting fear dominate my life.

Assistance Group 1 - Developing My Will to Love, 2016

Assistance Group 1.1 – Developing My Will to Love, February 2016

I have had an amazing opportunity to attend an Assistance Group this year in Noosaville Queensland, Australia, called Developing My Will to Love, an Education in Love Series, which was organised by Jesus and Mary, and presented by Jesus. Designed to help us understand God’s gift of free will to us, and how to use our will in a loving, positive direction. In addition, we learnt that God’s definition of Love is different to the worlds definition of love and in order to receive an education in love, we need to seek the highest source of love to teach us, which is God. Truly valuable information for anyone desiring to heal their soul, to learn about real love, and to develop their relationship with God. I have added the Assistance Group 1 – 2016 link below for those that are interested in watching, there is also Assistance Group 2, which is really good as well. Thank you Jesus and Mary for your love, truth, patience and care for us all.

“Love & Truth go hand in hand, and they cannot be separated” ~ Jesus

Assistance Group 1 – Developing My Will to Love, 2016

Love Jennene

Learning About Love

Rock Love Heart

Love heart shaped rock on a rock platform at the beach – Love is all around us if we open our hearts to learning.

I believe that learning about real love and coming to truly know ourself is imperative for any positive changes to take place in our lives and in the world.

Below are some of the questions I desire to learn more about from God, and the playground/universe God has created for us to learn about ourselves, about love, and about God if we choose to.

I will add more questions as they arise. * Updated 15-11-14, to include more topics for learning.

Questions:

* What does real love feel like?
* What does real love look like?
* How does real love act?

Other areas I desire to learn more about:

* Learning about God’s Love
* Learning about God’s Laws
* Learning about God’s Personality & Qualities
* Learning about humility
* Learning about my soul and who God created me to be
* Strengthening my will to love – putting love into action
* How to really love and care for myself
* Changing my daily life to one that supports my growth in love and my love for others
* Loving relationships – removing addictions in a relationship
* Becoming a loving healthy being without being co-dependent on others
* Repentance and forgiveness
* Loving passions, desires and being creative
* Using my will and putting into practise being truthful and desiring truth always
* Trust and faith
* How love changes the condition of our world – Learning how real love removes suffering in the world

I also love learning from two amazing teachers – AJ and Mary – that share a wealth of information about God, love, the human soul, and God’s Universe. I am truly grateful for these truths that are so freely shared and I can put these teachings into practice to be able to learn, discover and experience these truths for myself.

I also love learning from God when my heart is open to feeling God communicating to me. My desire is to one day be able to feel God communicating to me always and to always feel God’s Love; for this to happen I need to have a desire to sincerely want to know the truth about my true soul condition, and then have a sincere desire to want to heal my soul, I also need to have a strong will to grow and prayer to receive God’s Love. I am learning that the worlds definition of love is different to God’s definition of Love, and since my desire is to grow my soul in Love, I feel it’s important to educate myself about what real love is.

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Some helpful information below about Understanding Self from the Divine Truth Website.

Understanding Self – Introduction

Observations Regarding Stagnation:

Those who are stagnant do not:
… really understand themselves
… really understand or even want to know God
… really want to come face to face with the truth about themselves

Those who are stagnant do:
… want to ignore their own true condition
… want to ignore God
… want to ignore feeling and experiencing their own painful emotions
… want to ignore the damage they do to others by their own choices
… want to ignore what God created them to be

Importance of Understanding Self & how you were made
Without understanding yourself you cannot grow and change
Without understanding how you were made you cannot engage the real process of growth         We must understand we are a soul, and how that soul functions

Introduction To The Three Selves

The ‘three selves’ are:
The undamaged self God created
The damaged or hurt self that your environment and you created
The façade self your environment and you created to avoid the other two selves

We are talking about the ‘three selves’ from an emotional, soul based perspective
It is a single self, fragmented by the denial of the real, denial of the hurt, and the preferred creation of the façade

What Is My Real Self?

My real self:
The personality of my real self is created by God
The expression of my real self is controlled by myself alone
The development of my real self is controlled by myself
My real self has the ability to grow and change
At my conception my real self has not been hurt, and did not play facades
We can call my real self “God’s Child”

My real emotional self:
Is sensitive, aware, perceptive and insightful
Is expressive, animated, communicative, open and unrestrained
Is honest, truthful, sincere, frank, candid, blunt and transparent
Is adventurous, courageous, daring, bold, creative, brave and audacious
Is curious, inquisitive, questioning, probing, searching and enquiring
Is emotional, feeling and sensing
Can develop to become wise, intelligent, clever, gifted and logical
Can develop to become sensible, practical, responsible, accountable, dependable and rational
Can develop to become loving, caring, kind, gentle, considerate and compassionate

My real self lacks development for the following main reasons:
Others created damage or hurt to my real self at a very young age (conception onwards)
Others attempted to force me into a façade to suit them at a young age which further damaged my real self (conception onwards)
I continued to damage and hurt myself through my choices as I used my will
I continued to develop the façade to meet my own or others expectations as I used my own will
Consequently, my real self remains undeveloped, untrained, and remains potential only
We can call my real self my “Unknown Potential Self” to help us identify

What Is My Hurt Self?

My hurt self is:
Created by other people harming me (from conception onwards)
It is injured further by my harming myself or others through my choices                                         Is stagnant at the age the damage or harm was created
Contains most my own inner causal emotional pain and suffering
We can call my hurt self my “Hurt Child” to help us identify

My hurt emotional self:
Is pained, hurt, aggrieved, wounded, injured, upset, and distressed
Is timid, nervous, shy, fearful, hesitant, apprehensive, cautious and concerned
Is fragmented, disjointed, uneven, suppressed, dormant, undeveloped, concealed, embryonic   Is humiliated, shamed, embarrassed, disgraced, unfavoured, and self-conscious
Is rejected, discarded, unwanted, and unneeded by others
Is angry, rebellious, self-absorbed, self-centred, and lacks awareness of surroundings

My hurt self (hurt child) lacks development for the following main reasons:
Each hurt is ‘frozen’ at the age the hurt occurred no matter who caused the hurt
Each hurt, while it remains, prevents God’s Truth from entering on the same subject
Each hurt, while it remains, prevents my ability to feel and experience love as an emotion     Each hurt, while it remains, defines my understanding of truth and love
Each hurt is locked up inside, & cannot be released without sincere emotional expression
Unless the hurt self is felt emotionally, the hurt self cannot grow emotionally
Consequently, my hurt self remains young, childish, immature, contained & restricted

What Is My Façade Self?

My façade self is:
Is created in childhood by other people wanting me to be different to my real self (conception onwards)
Is further developed by my purposeful desire to ignore my real and hurt selves
Is often very ‘adult’ in nature, since adults or myself as an adult developed the façade
Contains all of my mechanisms for coping, managing and controlling my life
Has been formulated so that others firstly, and then I could avoid feeling pain or my real self
We can call my façade self my “Adult Façade” to help us identify

My façade emotional self:
Loves addiction, compulsion, obsession, urges, cravings, fixation and mania
Loves bullying, force, harassment, oppression, repression, coercion and manipulation           Loves abuse, cruelty, nastiness, meanness, brutality, viciousness and unkindness
Loves resistance, conflict, confrontation, disagreement, quarrel and squabbling
Loves arrogance, condescension, superiority, conceit, disdain, pride and egotism
Is insensitive, unaware, lacks perception or insight
Is un-expressive or false in its expression, pretending and made up
Is unanimated or false in its animation, lethargic or forced vibrancy
Is closed, reserved, controlled, forced, guarded and untrusting
Is dishonest, untruthful, insincere, lacks frankness, opaque and is not candid
Is prying, interfering, snooping, nosy, meddling, intrusive, invasive and pushy
Is unemotional or falsely emotional, unfeeling, unwise, dumb, stupid, and illogical
Is fixed, immovable, predetermined and rigid
Is apathetic, lazy, disinterested, uninvolved, bored and unconcerned
Is unwise, imprudent, thoughtless, irrational, reckless, irresponsible and careless                           Is selfish, self-absorbed, self-centred, narcissistic and vain

My façade self lacks development for the following main reasons:
The façade is a figment of our or someone else’s creation and imagination
The façade is denying the real emotions of the real and hurt selves
The façade is managing or controlling the direction of growth & awareness
The façade has no interest in true soul based progression of the real or hurt self
The façade is an imitation adult, a baby or a fiction in adults clothing

Progression

To progress towards God and ourselves we must engage the following sequence:
Remove the façade self
Educate, feel and experience the hurt self
Develop, educate, feel, and experience the real self’s qualities, attributes and personality
Develop a desire in the real self to receive God’s Love and Truth
Develop a desire in the real self to be loving and truthful with others

The most difficult process is to remove the façade self because:
The façade self has the most resistance to love and truth
The façade self wants to retain itself
The façade self wishes to avoid all painful emotion
The façade self is angry and resentful towards God

Conclusion

We must understand ourselves to progress
This is a part of our using our will to educate ourselves about love
This requires a personal effort on our own behalf

We must experience the emotions associated with each part of ourselves
The façade self
The hurt self
And the real self

What a beautiful artist God is

What a beautiful artist God is – a small part of the loving playground God has created for us learn & discover.

Passions & Desires

Dream Sign

This is my new wall sign, so perfectly true if you want a joyful and meaningful life. Too many times I have let my fears be bigger then my dreams and my words speak louder then my actions.

I’ve had enough of being fearful—it’s so boring!

Fear keeps me from living a happy, joyful, creative and fulfilled life. The only way to have your dreams be bigger then your fears, is to challenge your fears and feel your way through each of them. Every time I challenge my fears and release them from my soul I always find myself feeling free, more joyful and I have grown more faith in my ability to feel through all fears.

Our loving passions and desires are so important for our souls growth in love and joy. It also contributes to more love and joy in our world—which our world really needs more of.

Goodbye fear – Hello Love

Let our faith be in Love!

My Soul Reflects Upon The Autumn Leaves

Autumn Tree The changing colours of the autumn leaves are so beautiful and metaphorical. As I reflect upon these seasonal changes it helps me to learn more about myself and about love through one of God’s many creations—nature—which are constant reminders of the love and assistance God gives to us every step of the way. As the autumn season began I started to notice the beautiful changing colours of the leaves and felt a deeper understanding of the beautiful changes ones soul goes through whilst growing in love.

Trees naturally grow towards the light; they grow bigger, stronger and more full of life, giving us many different gifts; so too does the soul when we use our will to love; it yearns for the light of Love, of hope for a place more beautiful and vibrant; a place filled with love, kindness, warmth, peace and happiness; a place where the soul is free to be it’s glorious self and grow abundant in love, strength, health, joy, creativity and beauty; when we allow our soul to grow towards the light of Love.

The autumn leaves go through a layer of colours before it sheds the old; so too does the soul, it can feel many layers before it sheds the error it has absorbed from it’s environment. The autumn tree sheds the old leaves and awaits the growth of the new; the soul sheds the error, absorbs the truth and grows in love. Autumn Trees I see the beauty in the autumn leaves as they go through changes of shedding the old. I see the beauty in the bare tree that has shed the old and awaits the new growth; for it’s transformation will be full and abundant of life and beauty.

Do I see the beauty in my soul, as I too shed the old and welcome the new? God is teaching me to love; unconditional love and self compassion is a beautiful gift we can give ourselves as we shed the old and welcome the new.

God's Love

Loving God’s Way is so beautiful and much easier then my way!

I only make it harder for myself when I resist the most Loving Way!

Jennene 💗