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Developing My Will to Love

Hi Everyone,

It’s been a long time since I last wrote and there has been many changes in that time, which I may talk about some of them in future posts or I have been feeling that I may start recording as it will be less time consuming and I will be able to discuss topics in more detail. I have decided to write again because I have had some people in my life opening up, desiring to know the truth and wanting to heal themselves and their life, which has led to lots of discussions about the very topic I am so passionate about. So I thought it would be loving to start sharing again so that it may benefit others as it has benefited me greatly. One of the changes in my life I will briefly share now, but it is personal and I am still emotionally working through many layers of injuries, fears and false beliefs in order to heal and grow in love.

My husband Jason and I separated a year ago, after being together for 26 years and married for 22 years. The first 10 months of being separated has been extremely sad and painful for me to work through, due to the amount of emotional injuries in my soul and what I believed a man that loved me would do for me, as well as not being with my husband and possibly my soulmate. Over the past year I have begun to learn more about myself, some of what my true passions and desires are, about how to have a loving relationship from God’s prospective, the importance of my will and using my will to love, and addressing issues in my life without delay. Honestly, I don’t know how I would have gotten through the past year without God’s Love and guidance,  Jesus and Mary’s teachings, along with the love from my family and friends, and using my will each day to keep moving in a positive direction. I love you all and I am forever grateful for your love.

“God’s Love never fails, never gives up”

The past year has also opened many new doors for me, which I am really excited about (joy is coming). I have started my first year at University, I never would have thought I would go to Uni, but I am enjoying what I’m learning, although I don’t really like doing essays, as it takes my time away from doing other things that I am more passionate about. I am doing English and Creative Writing, Australian History and Aboriginal Studies, with a desire to one day write children’s educational books about love and when I learn more about love myself. Which leads me to my favourite subject to talk about, it is what lights up my soul, when I’m not letting fear dominate my life.

I have had an amazing opportunity to attend an Assistance Group this year in Noosaville Queensland, Australia, called Developing My Will to Love, an Education in Love Series, which was organised by Jesus and Mary, and presented by Jesus. Designed to help us understand God’s gift of free will to us, and how to use our will in a loving, positive direction. In addition, we learnt that God’s definition of Love is different to the worlds definition of love and in order to receive an education in love, we need to seek the highest source of love to teach us, which is God. Truly valuable information for anyone desiring to heal their soul, to learn about real love, and to develop their relationship with God. I have added the Assistance Group 1 – 2016 link below for those that are interested in watching, there is also Assistance Group 2, which is really good as well. Thank you Jesus and Mary for your love, truth, patience and care for us all.

“Love & Truth go hand in hand, and they cannot be separated” ~ Jesus

Assistance Group 1 – Developing My Will to Love, 2016

Love Jennene

Challenging My Fear Of Heights

Over the past month I have been challenging my fear of heights, this has not been easy for me to work through or want to feel the emotions of fear – I would rather avoid this emotion, but I know it is not loving for me or others when I live in fear rather then feeling it and releasing it from my soul.

I have spoken before about challenging my fear of heights as I feel it may help others to have faith in their ability to challenge and heal the emotions that hold us back from living a more happy and fulfilled life.

The following are some of the recent challenges I set for myself in a safe environment, in order from easier to the hardest:

* Looking over and walking next to the railing on the second or higher floor of a shopping centre

* Driving up steep roads

* Scenic Lookouts

* Treetop Adventure Park

* Walking across Sydney Harbour Bridge (this is not the Bridge Climb, just walking across)

View from Sydney Harbour Bridge

View of Sydney Harbour through the railings on the Bridge. A cold and rainy day, the rain stopped just before my walk.

I started these challenges with what I felt would be easier for me and worked my way up to the hardest, which in the past have been the most fearful for me to experience. On Saturday I walked across the Sydney Harbour Bridge, this time I walked without holding onto my husband Jason’s hand and squeezing it until it almost dropped off. I approached this challenge a bit differently to my previous attempts to face my fear of heights and it was a successful outcome for me, which has given me faith in my ability to feel my fear and become free of an emotion that holds me back.

What worked for me:

* Prayer to God to help me feel my fear and to not run away as soon as I start to feel overwhelmed by fear.

* I asked God to help me face my challenge with love.

* I asked my Guardian Angel and Celestial brothers & sisters to help me.

* I was loving, gentle and compassionate with myself as I felt through different emotions that came up for me.

* I stopped at different stages throughout the walk when I felt overwhelmed, I didn’t push myself to keep walking, I just stopped and felt. I could feel the love around me – encouraging me and I could feel my own love and compassion for myself.

* I breathed deeply which helped me to keep feeling and stay present with what I was experiencing, rather then shutting down and not wanting to feel fear.

* I didn’t ask anyone to help me avoid feeling my fears.

I was amazed at what began to happen from embracing this process – the fear released and I started to feel free and for the first time I could start to enjoy the view without feeling like I just wanted to get out of there. I began to walk beside the rail and look out across the harbour (I couldn’t do this last time I walked across the bridge), I began to feel some joy that I could actually feel and release this emotion that stops me in my tracks.

I now have faith that each time I challenge my fears that it will get easier and one day the fear will be no more.

I’m looking forward to that day 🙂

Jennene 💗

The Human Soul – Emotions & Feelings

I have recently listened to the Human Soul series of talks given by AJ and Mary; fantastic information about the human soul, how it functions and how to develop the soul in love.

I am also part the way through a new series of talks about Emotions & Feelings, both of these series of talks have been really helpful as I am working through some childhood emotions.

Any emotional or physical pain we have in our body is governed by our soul, when we heal our soul we heal our emotional and physical pain. Using our will in a positive direction is so important for the healing of our soul to begin to take place and to progress in love. I have found that learning about the human soul, emotions and feelings very beneficial in my healing process.

Creative Heart Work – Week 1

Brene Brown’s eCourse is about the Wholehearted Journey, from her book – The Gifts Of Imperfection; Let go of who you think you’re supposed to be and embrace who you are. Being Authentic!

Each week we have reading assignments from Brene’s book, there are a few short video’s with Brene and guests she has invited to share and demonstrate their creative ideas for the art work we are doing in our journals for each weeks lessons. There is also live Q & A sessions throughout the course.

The first weekly intention is: Courage, Compassion and Connection

Connection - #OLCBreneCourse

Connection – Brené Brown Art Journal eCourse

Being Authentic and Embracing who I am: Throughout this course I will incorporate what I have learnt and know to be true on my journey of healing my soul and growing in Love towards God, so I may change things so that it is more in alignment with what I have learnt and experienced. I will state where I have changed my heart work and share some of my feelings that have come up while doing this course.

Our first art work is Permission Slips: The questioned asked was – What do you have to give yourself permission to do when your doing something scary?

This is my first Heart Work Assignment in my Art Journal.

Creative Heart Work

Jennene’s Heart Work Journal

You don’t have to be a professional artist to be creative and have some fun bringing your heart & soul out onto paper. The permission slip assignment could be written on tags or draw tags and write in them or simply write a list. You can be messy or neat, what ever you desire to create. We got to view other peoples art work, that uploaded their work for others to see. Some very inspirational work, from scrapbooking, painting, drawings, pictures to more basic ones; like mine.

Our second assignment I am still creating and its about sharing the story of who you are with all your heart. The assignments are all done in our art journals and can be kept private for our own personal journey or if you desire you can share your own art work publicly. I thought I would share my first one, because it is about facing your fears, which is what I am working on at the moment and I feel writing down our feelings can help to bring more clarity on what needs to be healed in our soul. For me its not about permission, but about using my will and setting intentions to heal my soul and grow in Love, because thats where real, lasting happiness is found.

Jennene 💗

Get Real So You Can Heal!

Get Real So You Can Heal, is a mantra that has been popping up in my thoughts over the past couple of weeks. So I felt I would be brave enough to share how these words have helped me as I have been feeling my emotions to do with creating my first blog site.

Over the years of working through many different emotions, the words that have been consistent in my thoughts are: to be true to myself, to see and feel the truth about whats going on in my soul and in my life. I find writing a very helpful tool as it is another way of bringing more awareness of my souls condition on a deeper level; much healing has taken place as I reflect back on what I have written in my journals – which has been a very valuable gift.

My Journal

 Get Real So You Can Heal!

I have been wanting to start sharing my passions for many months, but I had some emotions to work through, to get to the point of finally sharing it. The emotions that surfaced were fear of judgement, unworthiness, what will people think about my passions, if my passions are so personal, why do I want to share them? With much praying to God for help in getting to the cause of these emotions, I was able to work through some of these emotions which gave me more courage and faith to start sharing my passions through blogging.

I don’t know if blogging will continue to be the place to share my passions, but I know I had to start putting my passions and desires into action. I felt like I could no longer keep them inside of myself. My desire grew stronger and so did my faith in God to guide my way.

I’m very excited to be now sharing my passions, but at the same time I am working through more emotions that arise from actually posting very personal experiences for all to see. I find it very easy to write for myself as this is something I do quite frequently, but I haven’t found it easy to publicly write about whats in my heart and soul. This process has brought to me more awareness and appreciation of everyone out there that are blogging or commenting online about their personal experiences from their heart. Which shows me the answer to my question; why do I want to share something so personal? Apart from having a desire to share my passions, what comes to mind, is something I hear and see many times while watching shows like Oprah, Dr Oz and from my own personal experiences; is in sharing our story, our experiences it may help another. For me I have been helped many times by hearing someone else’s story and have been inspired by the changes they have made as they have grown and learnt from the experiences in their life. I wouldn’t be writing this now on my blog if I hadn’t had assistance from many of my brothers and sisters.

So this is my chance to thank you all for sharing, loving, caring and having the courage to put yourself out there. You have all inspired me to do the same.

Love to you all,

Jennene 💗