Learning About Love

Rock Love Heart

Love heart shaped rock on a rock platform at the beach – Love is all around us if we open our hearts to learning.

I believe that learning about real love and coming to truly know ourself is imperative for any positive changes to take place in our lives and in the world.

Below are some of the questions I desire to learn more about from God, and the playground/universe God has created for us to learn about ourselves, about love, and about God if we choose to.

I will add more questions as they arise. * Updated 15-11-14, to include more topics for learning.

Questions:

* What does real love feel like?
* What does real love look like?
* How does real love act?

Other areas I desire to learn more about:

* Learning about God’s Love
* Learning about God’s Laws
* Learning about God’s Personality & Qualities
* Learning about humility
* Learning about my soul and who God created me to be
* Strengthening my will to love – putting love into action
* How to really love and care for myself
* Changing my daily life to one that supports my growth in love and my love for others
* Loving relationships – removing addictions in a relationship
* Becoming a loving healthy being without being co-dependent on others
* Repentance and forgiveness
* Loving passions, desires and being creative
* Using my will and putting into practise being truthful and desiring truth always
* Trust and faith
* How love changes the condition of our world – Learning how real love removes suffering in the world

I also love learning from two amazing teachers – AJ and Mary – that share a wealth of information about God, love, the human soul, and God’s Universe. I am truly grateful for these truths that are so freely shared and I can put these teachings into practice to be able to learn, discover and experience these truths for myself.

I also love learning from God when my heart is open to feeling God communicating to me. My desire is to one day be able to feel God communicating to me always and to always feel God’s Love; for this to happen I need to have a desire to sincerely want to know the truth about my true soul condition, and then have a sincere desire to want to heal my soul, I also need to have a strong will to grow and prayer to receive God’s Love. I am learning that the worlds definition of love is different to God’s definition of Love, and since my desire is to grow my soul in Love, I feel it’s important to educate myself about what real love is.

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Some helpful information below about Understanding Self from the Divine Truth Website.

Understanding Self – Introduction

Observations Regarding Stagnation:

Those who are stagnant do not:
… really understand themselves
… really understand or even want to know God
… really want to come face to face with the truth about themselves

Those who are stagnant do:
… want to ignore their own true condition
… want to ignore God
… want to ignore feeling and experiencing their own painful emotions
… want to ignore the damage they do to others by their own choices
… want to ignore what God created them to be

Importance of Understanding Self & how you were made
Without understanding yourself you cannot grow and change
Without understanding how you were made you cannot engage the real process of growth         We must understand we are a soul, and how that soul functions

Introduction To The Three Selves

The ‘three selves’ are:
The undamaged self God created
The damaged or hurt self that your environment and you created
The façade self your environment and you created to avoid the other two selves

We are talking about the ‘three selves’ from an emotional, soul based perspective
It is a single self, fragmented by the denial of the real, denial of the hurt, and the preferred creation of the façade

What Is My Real Self?

My real self:
The personality of my real self is created by God
The expression of my real self is controlled by myself alone
The development of my real self is controlled by myself
My real self has the ability to grow and change
At my conception my real self has not been hurt, and did not play facades
We can call my real self “God’s Child”

My real emotional self:
Is sensitive, aware, perceptive and insightful
Is expressive, animated, communicative, open and unrestrained
Is honest, truthful, sincere, frank, candid, blunt and transparent
Is adventurous, courageous, daring, bold, creative, brave and audacious
Is curious, inquisitive, questioning, probing, searching and enquiring
Is emotional, feeling and sensing
Can develop to become wise, intelligent, clever, gifted and logical
Can develop to become sensible, practical, responsible, accountable, dependable and rational
Can develop to become loving, caring, kind, gentle, considerate and compassionate

My real self lacks development for the following main reasons:
Others created damage or hurt to my real self at a very young age (conception onwards)
Others attempted to force me into a façade to suit them at a young age which further damaged my real self (conception onwards)
I continued to damage and hurt myself through my choices as I used my will
I continued to develop the façade to meet my own or others expectations as I used my own will
Consequently, my real self remains undeveloped, untrained, and remains potential only
We can call my real self my “Unknown Potential Self” to help us identify

What Is My Hurt Self?

My hurt self is:
Created by other people harming me (from conception onwards)
It is injured further by my harming myself or others through my choices                                         Is stagnant at the age the damage or harm was created
Contains most my own inner causal emotional pain and suffering
We can call my hurt self my “Hurt Child” to help us identify

My hurt emotional self:
Is pained, hurt, aggrieved, wounded, injured, upset, and distressed
Is timid, nervous, shy, fearful, hesitant, apprehensive, cautious and concerned
Is fragmented, disjointed, uneven, suppressed, dormant, undeveloped, concealed, embryonic   Is humiliated, shamed, embarrassed, disgraced, unfavoured, and self-conscious
Is rejected, discarded, unwanted, and unneeded by others
Is angry, rebellious, self-absorbed, self-centred, and lacks awareness of surroundings

My hurt self (hurt child) lacks development for the following main reasons:
Each hurt is ‘frozen’ at the age the hurt occurred no matter who caused the hurt
Each hurt, while it remains, prevents God’s Truth from entering on the same subject
Each hurt, while it remains, prevents my ability to feel and experience love as an emotion     Each hurt, while it remains, defines my understanding of truth and love
Each hurt is locked up inside, & cannot be released without sincere emotional expression
Unless the hurt self is felt emotionally, the hurt self cannot grow emotionally
Consequently, my hurt self remains young, childish, immature, contained & restricted

What Is My Façade Self?

My façade self is:
Is created in childhood by other people wanting me to be different to my real self (conception onwards)
Is further developed by my purposeful desire to ignore my real and hurt selves
Is often very ‘adult’ in nature, since adults or myself as an adult developed the façade
Contains all of my mechanisms for coping, managing and controlling my life
Has been formulated so that others firstly, and then I could avoid feeling pain or my real self
We can call my façade self my “Adult Façade” to help us identify

My façade emotional self:
Loves addiction, compulsion, obsession, urges, cravings, fixation and mania
Loves bullying, force, harassment, oppression, repression, coercion and manipulation           Loves abuse, cruelty, nastiness, meanness, brutality, viciousness and unkindness
Loves resistance, conflict, confrontation, disagreement, quarrel and squabbling
Loves arrogance, condescension, superiority, conceit, disdain, pride and egotism
Is insensitive, unaware, lacks perception or insight
Is un-expressive or false in its expression, pretending and made up
Is unanimated or false in its animation, lethargic or forced vibrancy
Is closed, reserved, controlled, forced, guarded and untrusting
Is dishonest, untruthful, insincere, lacks frankness, opaque and is not candid
Is prying, interfering, snooping, nosy, meddling, intrusive, invasive and pushy
Is unemotional or falsely emotional, unfeeling, unwise, dumb, stupid, and illogical
Is fixed, immovable, predetermined and rigid
Is apathetic, lazy, disinterested, uninvolved, bored and unconcerned
Is unwise, imprudent, thoughtless, irrational, reckless, irresponsible and careless                           Is selfish, self-absorbed, self-centred, narcissistic and vain

My façade self lacks development for the following main reasons:
The façade is a figment of our or someone else’s creation and imagination
The façade is denying the real emotions of the real and hurt selves
The façade is managing or controlling the direction of growth & awareness
The façade has no interest in true soul based progression of the real or hurt self
The façade is an imitation adult, a baby or a fiction in adults clothing

Progression

To progress towards God and ourselves we must engage the following sequence:
Remove the façade self
Educate, feel and experience the hurt self
Develop, educate, feel, and experience the real self’s qualities, attributes and personality
Develop a desire in the real self to receive God’s Love and Truth
Develop a desire in the real self to be loving and truthful with others

The most difficult process is to remove the façade self because:
The façade self has the most resistance to love and truth
The façade self wants to retain itself
The façade self wishes to avoid all painful emotion
The façade self is angry and resentful towards God

Conclusion

We must understand ourselves to progress
This is a part of our using our will to educate ourselves about love
This requires a personal effort on our own behalf

We must experience the emotions associated with each part of ourselves
The façade self
The hurt self
And the real self

What a beautiful artist God is

What a beautiful artist God is – a small part of the loving playground God has created for us learn & discover.

Passions & Desires

Dream Sign

This is my new wall sign, so perfectly true if you want a joyful and meaningful life. Too many times I have let my fears be bigger then my dreams and my words speak louder then my actions.

I’ve had enough of being fearful—it’s so boring!

Fear keeps me from living a happy, joyful, creative and fulfilled life. The only way to have your dreams be bigger then your fears, is to challenge your fears and feel your way through each of them. Every time I challenge my fears and release them from my soul I always find myself feeling free, more joyful and I have grown more faith in my ability to feel through all fears.

Our loving passions and desires are so important for our souls growth in love and joy. It also contributes to more love and joy in our world—which our world really needs more of.

Goodbye fear – Hello Love

Let our faith be in Love!

Challenging My Fear Of Heights

Over the past month I have been challenging my fear of heights, this has not been easy for me to work through or want to feel the emotions of fear – I would rather avoid this emotion, but I know it is not loving for me or others when I live in fear rather then feeling it and releasing it from my soul.

I have spoken before about challenging my fear of heights as I feel it may help others to have faith in their ability to challenge and heal the emotions that hold us back from living a more happy and fulfilled life.

The following are some of the recent challenges I set for myself in a safe environment, in order from easier to the hardest:

* Looking over and walking next to the railing on the second or higher floor of a shopping centre

* Driving up steep roads

* Scenic Lookouts

* Treetop Adventure Park

* Walking across Sydney Harbour Bridge (this is not the Bridge Climb, just walking across)

View from Sydney Harbour Bridge

View of Sydney Harbour through the railings on the Bridge. A cold and rainy day, the rain stopped just before my walk.

I started these challenges with what I felt would be easier for me and worked my way up to the hardest, which in the past have been the most fearful for me to experience. On Saturday I walked across the Sydney Harbour Bridge, this time I walked without holding onto my husband Jason’s hand and squeezing it until it almost dropped off. I approached this challenge a bit differently to my previous attempts to face my fear of heights and it was a successful outcome for me, which has given me faith in my ability to feel my fear and become free of an emotion that holds me back.

What worked for me:

* Prayer to God to help me feel my fear and to not run away as soon as I start to feel overwhelmed by fear.

* I asked God to help me face my challenge with love.

* I asked my Guardian Angel and Celestial brothers & sisters to help me.

* I was loving, gentle and compassionate with myself as I felt through different emotions that came up for me.

* I stopped at different stages throughout the walk when I felt overwhelmed, I didn’t push myself to keep walking, I just stopped and felt. I could feel the love around me – encouraging me and I could feel my own love and compassion for myself.

* I breathed deeply which helped me to keep feeling and stay present with what I was experiencing, rather then shutting down and not wanting to feel fear.

* I didn’t ask anyone to help me avoid feeling my fears.

I was amazed at what began to happen from embracing this process – the fear released and I started to feel free and for the first time I could start to enjoy the view without feeling like I just wanted to get out of there. I began to walk beside the rail and look out across the harbour (I couldn’t do this last time I walked across the bridge), I began to feel some joy that I could actually feel and release this emotion that stops me in my tracks.

I now have faith that each time I challenge my fears that it will get easier and one day the fear will be no more.

I’m looking forward to that day 🙂

Jennene 💗

Rock Pool Discoveries

I have been enjoying exploring the beach and rock pools over the past few weeks, which inspired me to do my first rock pool guided tour on the weekend, which I found fascinating. If you wish to bring out your inner child or awaken your desire to start exploring and discovering, this is a great way to do it. I have walked along rock platforms many times, but have never really paid much attention to the many creations around me and the amazing work they all do, I learn’t many things on this tour and had just as much fun as the little kids that were on the tour with us.

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Rock Platforms

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Looks like craters on the moon which were filled with lots of what I thought were just shells.

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There were hundreds of shells covering the rock platforms, which were homes to snails. They slowly move over the rocks eating algae (although some snails eat other snails). Names of the snails here: Tubercled Noddiwink (tiny ones), Black Nerite and Variegated Limpet (white & brown – photo below).

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This rock is covered with Rosette Barnacles – Barnacles are closely related to prawns, they are filter feeders which open their shell plates when covered by water and collect food particles with their hairy feet.

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Tiny crab that was hiding under a rock. So clever how they remover their shell when they get to big for it and form a new one.

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This large rock pool is filled with little star fish (now called sea stars because they are not actually fish, but closely related to sea urchins), which have five arms. They were so well camouflaged that we all couldn’t see them until our guide pointed them out. Below is a close up of the rock pool above.

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This is a sea star our guide picked up to let us hold and see up close what they look like.

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Sea star turned over – the star shaped lines you can see are lots of little feet and the round circle in the middle is it’s mouth.

IMG_3965I noticed that the closer I got to the main source of life (the ocean) the more life I saw in the rock pools and the more colourful they were. I started to feel a deeper understanding of our souls journey towards God and how we can come to have a closer relationship with our Divine Parent.

The closer I am to the source of God’s creations; to life, the more I feel a connection to God and I learn more about myself and about God in the process. My energy feels clearer when I am in nature, I feel more, my senses are heightened, and my mind is much clearer also. Although it is a slow process of healing my soul I have noticed every time I heal a part of my soul, let go of false beliefs and live in harmony with what God is teaching me I feel closer to God, I feel clearer and more vibrant in my soul, I feel more alive and more joyful.

Just like the rock pools are more vibrant, clearer and abundant the closer they are to the source of life, so too does the soul get more vibrant, clearer and abundant the closer it gets to God.

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One little sea star in this little rock pool, it was a joy to find.

One little sea star in this little rock pool, it was a joy to find.

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The brownish-red blobs hanging form this rock are called Waratah Anemone, they are closed up.

The brownish-red blobs hanging from this rock are called Waratah Anemone, they are closed up.

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Waratah Anemone one partly opened and one fully opened – bright red with little sea stars around them, very colourful and a big difference from the rock pools closer to the beach.

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The photo above is an Elephant Snail (black circle with what looks like a cream coloured shell on top), the two sea stars below the snail are in the photos below, our guide removed them from the rock pool briefly to show us more closely.

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These sea stars are much larger with ten arms and it amazes me how much they camouflage with nearly the exact colour of the rock they are on. Below is the sea star turned over, which  it was in the middle of eating it’s lunch. Sea stars protrude their stomach outside of their mouth and digest their food outside of their bodies. Some sea stars can also grow new arms and a few species can grow an entire body. This sea star looks like it has had a couple of arms nibbled at.

IMG_3990We are surrounded by God’s creations all with an intelligent system that we can learn about and come to appreciate the amazing work they do. I am just beginning to open my eyes and my heart to learning about what gifts nature has to offer.

Exploring God’s Creations

Magpies

My soul is being drawn to spend more time in nature and explore God’s beautiful, amazing creations (I will share over a few posts my discoveries as I begin to learn more about God and how nature can help you to learn more deeply about yourself).

Inspired to go whale watching as it is whale season and these beautiful, joyful, giants are heading north along the NSW coastline to warmer waters for breeding and calving. Although I didn’t see any this day I did observe the creations that where nearby as we waited patiently to spot a whale and soak up the warmth of the sun shining on us.

We spent a couple of hours relaxing and watching and what I noticed was the tree in front of me had magpies coming and going the whole time, and they would all do the same thing. They flew onto the branches, they observed their surroundings, they sang, they were silent, they sang some more, then off they flew.

I asked myself what can I learn about these magpies? They were happy being themselves, they were freely exploring the world in which they live, and they freely voiced what was inside of themselves, they didn’t need approval to sing and it didn’t matter if anyone heard them they just sang their tune aloud and off they went – I was grateful that I heard the song that they shared, I was grateful for the gift of sight, of hearing, of smell, of touch, of taste, and awareness.

The more I learn, explore, and discover the more I see how Loving, Amazing, Precise, and Intelligent God is.

What songs do we have inside of us that are longing to be sung?
What words do we have inside of us that are longing to be expressed?
What beautiful passions and desires are inside of us waiting to be free?

Jennene 💗