Over the past month I have been challenging my fear of heights, this has not been easy for me to work through or want to feel the emotions of fear – I would rather avoid this emotion, but I know it is not loving for me or others when I live in fear rather then feeling it and releasing it from my soul.
I have spoken before about challenging my fear of heights as I feel it may help others to have faith in their ability to challenge and heal the emotions that hold us back from living a more happy and fulfilled life.
The following are some of the recent challenges I set for myself in a safe environment, in order from easier to the hardest:
* Looking over and walking next to the railing on the second or higher floor of a shopping centre
* Driving up steep roads
* Scenic Lookouts
* Treetop Adventure Park
* Walking across Sydney Harbour Bridge (this is not the Bridge Climb, just walking across)
I started these challenges with what I felt would be easier for me and worked my way up to the hardest, which in the past have been the most fearful for me to experience. On Saturday I walked across the Sydney Harbour Bridge, this time I walked without holding onto my husband Jason’s hand and squeezing it until it almost dropped off. I approached this challenge a bit differently to my previous attempts to face my fear of heights and it was a successful outcome for me, which has given me faith in my ability to feel my fear and become free of an emotion that holds me back.
What worked for me:
* Prayer to God to help me feel my fear and to not run away as soon as I start to feel overwhelmed by fear.
* I asked God to help me face my challenge with love.
* I asked my Guardian Angel and Celestial brothers & sisters to help me.
* I was loving, gentle and compassionate with myself as I felt through different emotions that came up for me.
* I stopped at different stages throughout the walk when I felt overwhelmed, I didn’t push myself to keep walking, I just stopped and felt. I could feel the love around me – encouraging me and I could feel my own love and compassion for myself.
* I breathed deeply which helped me to keep feeling and stay present with what I was experiencing, rather then shutting down and not wanting to feel fear.
* I didn’t ask anyone to help me avoid feeling my fears.
I was amazed at what began to happen from embracing this process – the fear released and I started to feel free and for the first time I could start to enjoy the view without feeling like I just wanted to get out of there. I began to walk beside the rail and look out across the harbour (I couldn’t do this last time I walked across the bridge), I began to feel some joy that I could actually feel and release this emotion that stops me in my tracks.
I now have faith that each time I challenge my fears that it will get easier and one day the fear will be no more.
I’m looking forward to that day 🙂